Sometimes I still think about you, even knowing that I shouldn't. I'm happy, my life is great, and I have an wonderful girlfriend. But your shadow still haunts me. Sometimes I wish I could meet you, maybe talk a little... Wondering... Would we be friends at least? Or something like that. Sometimes I ask myself if you think about me now and then... I wish you did. 

The Wolf and The Girl

Inspired by Chiara Bautista’s drawing.

Once upon a time there was a girl who lived inside her own mind. She was always thinking about her emotions, her tiny little own places and planets. In the summer, she used to spend nights laid down in the grass looking to the moon and the stars, imagining what it would be if it was a living thing. Every single night she was out there, telling them her secrets, her thoughts, her feelings. She opened her heart and bleed out searching for answers that never came. In one single night she was so tired of the blindness in her wounded heart that she didn’t even care about freezing to death in the cold wind of winter. Then the moon feeling sorry about the little naïve girl made for her a blanket with the deep black sky and the shine bright stars, and send her in a form of a wolf. He wrapped her in his warm fur and she immediately stopped crying and freezing. When the sun came and the girl waked up she suddenly felt happy. She was always sad in the mornings, because her beloved moon had disappeared, but now she would always have her piece of the moon and the stars in a partner. The wolf followed her everywhere she used to go. She never felt alone anymore. One freezing cold day, the wolf was almost dying even still trying to protect her from the cold. So she kneeled before him and made him a coat with everything she had: her heart. Since that day they become one, sharing the same heart, the same blood, the same secrets. One day he would have to leave, she knew that, and he would take part of her heart within. But until then, she would allow herself to love him deeply and to be loved in return. 

5 Words Challenge - Vicodin, Pony, Foam, Stars and Gun

Vicodin

One, two, three pills came out of the tub. She looked at her reflection in the mirror. It was good to be able to look at a mirror and see herself, and not a blue face. What she saw was pain in her dark eyes. She was suffering. The curse was broken, she was broken. She was used to the pain, to the suffering, but when she was younger she was a believer. Now, after so many years, she couldn’t handle that alone. One, two, three pills of vicodin. She swallowed them with a cup of water. Emma was the hope, after all. The hope for everyone but Regina. She took Henry away, and she used the mayor to get people’s attention. Why did everybody just keep taking what was hers? Everybody loved to rip things way her! So why the surprise when she ripped their hearts? They took her boyfriend, her lover, her son, her kindom, her power… Why she should care about anyone’s happiness, but hers? Nobody cared about her. One two three pills… She wasn’t counting anymore. She just wanted to make sure it would stop the hurt.

5 Words Challenge - Cream, Cherries, Chocolate, Baby, Apples

Some time ago I asked my followers on tumblr to send me five words for a "5 Words Challenge". I should write an oneshot for each word, and it was about Swan Queen (Emma and Regina) from a tv show called OUAT (Once Upon a Time). Here is the first one, with the first five words. It was betaed by Suzane.

Cream

That chocolate was pretty hot. So hot she couldn’t drink it. In fact, she hadn’t even asked for it! She came to Granny’s and Ruby served it. She said she didn’t ask, but Ruby said someone asked it for her. Alright, that was weird. Specially because there was cream on her it. She really liked that combination, but no one in Storybrooke knew about it yet…

“Enjoying your drink, Miss Swan?” Regina appeared right behind her.

“Hey, it was you? I mean, thanks, but I don’t…” Emma started, but the brunette interrupted her.

“I know what you like, Emma. I notice everything. You might want to do the same. It might come in handy.” Regina blinked to her.

 The Mayor turned on her heels and left. Emma looked at her cup and a devious smile on her face when she imagined the words chocolate, cream and Regina in the same sentence. 

Feelings

Looking at the sky in the middle of night,

I try to find a reason why you keep showing in my mind.

It's late at night and I miss your tender skin against mine.

Could you please stay for a while and hold me tight?

I can't find the right words to describe,

All the good feelings I can no more deny.

You broght the best in me that I couldn't even see,

And for the first time I finally saw me.

Story - Drunk On Love

Story – Drunk On Love

N/A: I wrote this oneshot in english and a friend of mine, Kristen, corrected it for me. So, thanks a lot to her. This is the first story I'm posting here. I hope you guys like it.

ps: I wrote it based on Rihanna's song "Drunk on love".

The room was crowded and noisy. It was the first party the company had thrown after a few years; finally after so long the firm had reached a good score on the merchant. They rented an apartment in a fancy building in the center of New York. I worked there for three years; it was a good job. I had my own clients to take care of, the money was good, and I wasn’t complaining. I took a glass of champagne and sat on the armchair, quietly enjoying my drink and the party. Suddenly something caught my attention; it was a laugh. I’ve always been in love with smiles and laughs, and that one… It was beautiful and full of life. I looked around, trying to identify the person who had laughed, and I saw a group of people around me.

Welcome!

Hey everybody! My name is Laris and I just starting a new blog.

I've my main blog "It's A Love Affair", but it's all in portuguese, and I wanted to have a place where I could share my stories and thoughts and everything in english, so I decided to create this blog. Since the other one is a love affair, this one is a broken heart, so I may talk about some feelings and everything and I hope it makes me feel better. I don't know if anyone will ever read this, but I hope you enjoy it anyway. 

Thank you, and be welcome!